Change.

Life is all about change. I mean, if you're not moving forward, you're falling behind... or what's worse... you grow stagnant.
And, as of late, (especially professionally) I feel as though I am growing more and more stagnant by the day.
That's why I told them a few days ago that I was going to stay another month, then I am gone.
Now, this wasn't just a random decision that I wanted to quit my job. It's been in the works for a while now. And I didn't quit without a Plan B. I do have another job lined up. It just doesn't happen to start until the end of March.
They took it well, ummmm... as well as could be expected. I have personal ties that go back at least a decade with most of them. My boss says she thinks I am making a mistake, which she later clarified that the reason why I was making a mistake was because who would bring her chocolate and mountain dew?
I've reiterated several times that this is not a loyalty issue. I'm not even staying in the same line of work. If I were leaving for a competitor, well, yeah... it would be like me flipping the metaphorical bird at all of them. I'm just ready to pursue a different career angle... one with exponentially more job growth and opportunity. Something I could see myself in for a long while... and one where I won't feel the desperate need to shower immediately upon returning home. Wearing jeans to work is a plus, too.
So, wish me luck. Yes, I am a little scared to be doing something I have never done before... but the excitement of something new trumps the fear.

...but I can't sleep.

I think it's just one of those situations where too many thoughts are racing through your mind at full speed.
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. Do I like where I am professionally? Do I like where I stand as far as my education is concerned? Where is this blog going, and is it pointless?
The answers are:
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
As far as my job goes, at the rate the economy is going (yes, I know you're sick of hearing about it/talking about it, as am I, trust me) I'm glad to have a job that is still going successfully and appears to have a future throughout the rough months/years that lie ahead. Did I think 10 years ago I would be doing this job? No. If you would have told me I would still be doing this job 10 years ago, would I have shot myself and gotten it over with? Yes. But looking at the situation as a whole, it's really not that bad. I like the people I work with and work for, for starters, and that's more than many can say about their jobs altogether.
I wish I would've gotten a Bachelor's in something slightly more useful to the general public. But it's something I enjoy, and for some reason, people seem marginally impressed when you mention you have a B.A. in English Literature and Composition, (much less your ability to tolerate the public school system long enough to attain a teaching license) regardless of its value in the workplace.
Which brings me to the blog. Overall, I think it's a good idea. It'll be more fun now that I have others joining in... and others seem ready and willing to write. And I think it's a good outlet.
So, I suppose only time will tell how things end up in all three areas. I'll still continue to think too much (which I shouldn't) and fail to get sleep (which I desperately need.)
January's over. 11/12 more of 2009 to go, if I can just hang in there.